I am a white woman in my early 20s and I am only attracted to Asian men since I was 14. It has nothing to do with pop culture (movies, dramas). I really mean it. Why am I like this? I know every person has a type and preference but I need to find a deeper meaning in this. I feel like there is a deeper meaning. Like I live in a country where there are mostly white people and I've never felt real emotional attraction towards any guy. I feel cursed. I've never been on a date. I've never kissed anyone. Either I feel completely nothing when I met someone or I like him as a friend.