I've never kissed a girl before thanks to the fact I was blessed with being both socially awkward and physically ugly. I was that kid that didn't go to prom since no one would say yes since they wouldn't want to "be caught dead next to me" as one girl put it. I hate the cards I was dealt, and I know I'll probably die alone and as a virgin unless I pay someone like a hooked. I wouldn't be surprised if a hooker told me no or asked for some amount I couldn't afford at this point. I hate who I am.