Thoughts on giving up pursuing my dreams
I never had any dreams in life,like never, and if I did „have“ one, I’d prentend to say the safest option like me being a translator (without the ambition and care ofc), until the last few years. Found out about Motorsports (on the car side, Like F1,Indy, NASCAR ect.) and was fully Immersed by it.Even watching those races would get me exited,and even ambitious(?). To sum it up, I absolutely loved it. Loved it to the point that one day I had/have a dream of becoming a professional driver myself. Little did I know how slim (almost impossible) the chances could be.
I did not even start to where I am now, it’s not because of me not acting on it,it was because I can’t. People start out with Karting.There were nowhere where I can even Kart (on, and if I did, they either only have 1. for kids 2. overcharge for some short minutes to Kart 3.barely have the right equipment. and 4. too far away.
Also,just the path itself is very pricey, ranging to 1000-10.000 (one of the cheapest) to staggering millions.
I live in a First world country, itty bitty lower middle class (accounting to my country),also Motorsports is very unpopular.
Even,if we say, that I,somehow am able to Kart, there is a higher chance of me running out on funds before I even go to tournaments or atleast get something out of it. We have nothing of value to sell,or not enough things to sell.
I know that I don’t want to give up still, If I did, I would have no purpose, I want to do something that I love doing.I can’t imagine myself doing something else, I don’t have anything left that I want to pursue. But having a dream,only having this dream is,unpleasant and even dreadful sometimes, something so out of reach,that I can only contemplate about right now.
I’m haven’t made up yet. I’m feeling hopeless right now. One side wanting to go to the path,one side knowing the harsh reality of it all.
Parents know my dream, Family are semi supportive (not all of em) , never told anyone except them.
I did not even start to where I am now, it’s not because of me not acting on it,it was because I can’t. People start out with Karting.There were nowhere where I can even Kart (on, and if I did, they either only have 1. for kids 2. overcharge for some short minutes to Kart 3.barely have the right equipment. and 4. too far away.
Also,just the path itself is very pricey, ranging to 1000-10.000 (one of the cheapest) to staggering millions.
I live in a First world country, itty bitty lower middle class (accounting to my country),also Motorsports is very unpopular.
Even,if we say, that I,somehow am able to Kart, there is a higher chance of me running out on funds before I even go to tournaments or atleast get something out of it. We have nothing of value to sell,or not enough things to sell.
I know that I don’t want to give up still, If I did, I would have no purpose, I want to do something that I love doing.I can’t imagine myself doing something else, I don’t have anything left that I want to pursue. But having a dream,only having this dream is,unpleasant and even dreadful sometimes, something so out of reach,that I can only contemplate about right now.
I’m haven’t made up yet. I’m feeling hopeless right now. One side wanting to go to the path,one side knowing the harsh reality of it all.
Parents know my dream, Family are semi supportive (not all of em) , never told anyone except them.