I'm a 41 year old loser who still lives at home taking care of his mom, and I have no clue what I'm going to do with my life. I can barely hold a job or save any money. I smoke and drink and wonder wtf is going to happen to me when my mom dies? I sell the house and do what? Blow that money and end up on the street homeless and invisible to the world? I can't see a future where things work out for me and I spend most of my time just feeling numb.